Once again, we were on our way back to Alabama. This time the trip wasn’t just for a visit or holiday break, it was for our wedding. Even though it was still a few months away, I felt like it was tomorrow. My excitement and adrenaline level was at an all time high. Devin on the other hand was his usual, calm and collected self. I loved how he balanced me out. Although it was a full-time job, he managed to help me keep my head out of the clouds and my feet firmly on the ground.
The end of the sixteen hour trip back to Alabama couldn’t get there soon enough for me. Although I loved Devin dearly, and loved spending time with him, he was not the most interesting traveling partner for my bubbly personality. My motto, if you have to be in a car for hours on end, you might as well make it fun, right? For example, I wanted the air conditioning off and the windows rolled down, with my hair blowing in the wind. I hated the feeling of being cold and stuffy, so I figured, the best way to remedy the problem was to open every window and be free as a bird. Not Devin, he hated the heat and humidity, and he certainly didn’t like the loud noise and business of the wind blowing through the car. For the life of him, he could not wrap his brain around why I liked hot, humid, wind whipping through the car, and I couldn’t wrap my brain around why anyone would want to freeze for sixteen hours in a car!
Another issue was the radio. I wanted the radio on and the volume high. I also liked to change the station often to find the best song, he didn’t need the radio on at all! At about hour three of cold air and silence I said, as if it had just occurred to me, “How about some music?” With a shrug of his shoulders and a dismissive tone, he said, “yeah, if you want.” In my head I was thinking, yeah! I want! What kind of weirdo doesn’t want to listen to music? That’s what radios are for!! I turned the radio on and the volume up. He reached over and turned it down. I sang the words to every song and sang them loud and proud. On the other end of the spectrum, most of the songs I was singing, he had never even heard of. I couldn’t understand how he could live such a vanilla life. Maybe that’s why God put us together, I thought. Maybe I’m meant to bring some fun into his life, and maybe he’s supposed to teach me consistency and contentment. I really didn’t care if we ever listen to music or if I froze to death in the car. All I knew was that I loved this man with every fiber of my being and I couldn’t wait to spend the rest of my life with him.
After multiple bathroom breaks and minimal conversation, we finally made it to our destination, Mobile Alabama. Our next two months were all planned out. Devin was doing his internship at my home church and living with my pastor and his wife. I on the other hand planned to live at home with mom and dad while finalizing our wedding plans. Most all of the big stuff for the wedding was taken care of. The tuxedos her picked out, the flowers were chosen, the cake was finalized and the honeymoon was booked, but still I had a long list of little things that needed to be checked off my list and I was running out of time.
Day after day, week after week we worked our way to June 29th. And every night, when I laid my head on my pillow I did the same thing I had done every night for a year. I prayed for Gods perfect will. Ever since the day Devin wiped frozen snot from my face, I knew I love him. There was never any doubt or question in my mind, ever. But beyond my love for him, was my love and dedication to God. As much an I was dedicated to Devin and being his wife, my dedication to God was more important. Every single night, without fail I prayed, “God, thank you so much for bringing Devin into my life. He’s perfect. He’s everything I’ve ever dreamed of and I want to spend my life by his side. I believe he is Your perfect will for my life, I have no doubts. But Lord, if I am wrong, and he is not the man I’m supposed to spend my life with, please tell me and I will break up with him tomorrow. I promise. Amen” I knew if God told me to break up with Devin it would be the hardest thing I had ever had to do, but I was serious and God knew it. Every time I prayed that prayer, it made my love for Devin deepen and I never heard God say no. To be continued…